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Had it been last year it would have been the happiest
time of my life. March. A month when I leaped into the unknown and the
unexplored. March. A month which will now forever define me. Isn't it ironic
how the start of something so grand and perplexing is often so very simple?? The
simple chances we take or the choices we make, in the glitter of a spark and
sometimes, even without our realization of the consequences, can change our
lives forever. Just a smile, a touch or a simple conversation is enough to trigger
the emotional bomb within us. And the explosion - that must be the part where love
grabs a hold of us and everything is neon bright, and we, out of sheer will, do
the craziest, stupidest things we regret later on. The aftershock of that
explosion, of love, is such that you can never be the same again. It is what
comes to define us, what haunts us and at the same time, what keeps us human.
There is an emptiness lurking here and there inconspicuously
inside of us. Why is it that when we fall in love, we try to fill that small
but yet too big a gap by the person we are in love with? It has to be filled up
by you, by me, through loving oneself and accepting one’s worth and
significance. Why do we realize this only when the doors are closed?? Instead of
letting that person be a part of our world, we make him or her our whole world,
our happiness. And when things go wrong, that world crumbles to dust and an
even bigger gap takes shape in our hearts. This is one of my sorriest mistakes.
“You are your own happiness”. I wish I had known that sooner. If I had, then
maybe that rare miracle called love I was blessed enough to witness, and which I
still long for, wouldn't have ruined me this much.
Ofttimes, it isn't really up to us that the person becomes our whole world. May your period of healing be brief.
ReplyDeleteWell that differs from person to person i guess. And thank you...appreciate it
DeleteMarch ah in in ban ani moooo? nge March an in ni zok? :p
ReplyDelete:D i'll leave that one for you to guess :p
DeleteSmitten kitten bitten
ReplyDeleteback by love and such,
Ah! Young love, ti's sweet!
Oh why...thank you thank you :) :)
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